Went back to my old sec school today..
Same reaction from most who haven't seen me in a long time.
"Wah someone long hair already sia!!" Ah anyway.

NANHUA'S RANKING IS FROM 31 to 13.
Kudos to the us, 2000Batch. -takes a bow.

Had a Swensen's meal (with my raelo! tammy and bernice) for the first time in my entire soddy life. Yeah, yeah. I seldom go town, I've NEVER stepped into Cafe Cartel, NYDC, Haagen Daz, Foster's, Sizzlers', Crystal Jade. Sakae Sushi only once, and that's about it. Oh whee.
Damn I really gotta STOP splurging. On food. Gah.

Radio was Freaking Fun today!! Char, you'll soooo regret not coming today. Friday won't be as fun for you! Bahaha. Danny Yeo, ex 93.3/ufm100.3 deejay/new radio tutor but not ours, sat in with us today. He didn't talk much though. Yoka rocks still. We're so freaking lucky to have Yoka teach us ONLY! HEH.
We did abit of ProTools today. Me and Eve did this "mini-drama", a la some real recording studio. Eve was Good (stop saying you aren't)! We sound uncannily like each other. Not that I'm complaining though. Heh.
Split in our pairs to do recordings - Anne and I had a real freaky recording. Its the seventh month now, so I shall not elaborate in case of causing emotional disturbance. Hurr.
We Acappella-ed the ABC song too! whee. But I didnt save it. We saved the one Eve Valerie Anne and I did though! Eve did the upper harmonisation, me the lower. Val and Anne did the melody. Yoka did the recording. Heh. Then me and Eve Acapella-ed M2M's Mirror Mirror, all in the makeshift recording studio. Sweet. (:
Char WHY WHYWHY WHY didn't you come!!!!! Bah. Too bad lorh. :D

The answer is DUCK .

xb,joyce: this is the Car Queen you're talking to KAY. BAHAHA. hEeXx >.<'

Life goes on.
Had a good weekend in church - on Sat, JUMP Fellowship saw us having a good breakdown on the Youth Fellowship, and then the usual takeaway-to-church dinner.
Its good to have a big food centre/market just a stone's throw away from church!
Pastor Wesley treated us all to 4 tubs of Ben &Jerry's.
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and Chocolate Fudge Brownie (the norms), Chunky Monkey (a Hot Favourite too) and PHISH FOOD.
I say, Phish Food is DEAD good. Heck, ALL Ben &Jerry's are good! One Sweet Whirled and New York Super Fudge Chunk is highly recommended by me too, and the elusive Half-Baked (Choc chip cookie dough AND Choc fudge brownie in ONE).
The ice-creams went round the long table, and we had much fun snatching the tubs around, heh.
Borrowed home one of the church's guitars and practised it till 2am. My fingertips are still sore ah.

Headed down to Rose's after church ended on Sunday to celebrate her birthday this coming Thursday (:
Glad she liked the Birkens! (: Shiny red with slight patterns. Sweeet.
Had the party at the poolside. Rocky's Pizza was dead good. And so was the company too..
We were playing all the games from last time - remember 'Pim Pom'? and the '1, 2, 3 we up we down we front back leg' (loosely translated). and many other games.

4hour break, the ABCDE came to my house to relax on my bed. (:
Ha I introduced the Black Sheep White Sheep game to class today, and I think Zixin and Val and some others are hooked too. Stupid Evelyn doesnt find it fun. Gah. And Poof, all the games came tumbling out too - stupid ones, fun ones, crazy ones. HEH today our class totally shattered all the MassComm norms! We were playing like nobodies' business in between lecture breaks. Today was Fun! (:
JLo: 'What has Mass Comm done to your brains?"
Hurhur.

Chicken duck chicken chicken chicken duck duck duck chicken duck chicken duck.
___?

Those who already know the game, SHHHH. :D

http://bbs.carcn.net/bbs/non-cgi/usr/1/1_6020.swf

25s on my 3rd try;
13s on my 5th try.

Benita

Too late.

I've paid the heaviest price to learn the cheapest lesson -
One which didn't even need much teaching in the first place.

If I didn't exist, the world would be so much a less complicated place.

-sorry, its time for some self-depreciating comments from someone who is feeling like diarrhoea. Not that I want sympathy. I just need to let some out.

This is a pathetically done picture of my 4 beloved babies using Paint. I don't have photoshop k. 

Heh to those who tagged. Thanks.

Beni's Theories to Life has just changed. Tanning alone is nothing wrong. Cognitive dissonance, yeah I know.
Cos I went tanning on my own- at a quiet little pool at the rooftop of _____. Its somehwere very near NP, and it shall be my haven for now! Bahaha.

At 3.30pm to 4.30pm, all was nice and quiet till this crazy maid with a uber irritating voice ruined the placid atmosphere. She kept screaming at the kid she was taking care of la.
Sometimes I wonder why these maids gain sympathy. There are maids who whack kids too.
But ok la, they aren't to be abused still.

Then when I cooled down and wanted to start swimming, these 2 PRCs took over the pool.
Let me correct that - these 2 PRCs, one male and one female, took over the breadth of the pool. The shallow end. Why? I shall explain in abit.
The pool isn't very long, nor wide. Its abt 10m x 3m only.
I was doing my laps (curse swimming with bikinis- they ride up. Bah.) and they were talking super loudly (which PRCs don't anyway) to each other.
I don't wanna bitch, but I can't help it cos PRCs are very yaya papaya. They can't do stuff well but they like to make it sound as though they can.
Go cut a fish's dorsal fin and half a caudal fin (the tail; now you know) and see how it swims(Don't tell the SPCA I suggested that).
That's how the guy demostrated his 'skills', and the girl was soooo impressed by him.
The girl didn't dare to swim to the deeper end, which was around 2.5m deep. The shallow part was 1m deep. Argh okok I shall stop bitching.
I was desprately trying not to snort while swimming, and no, Char, I didn't hum cos I was too distracted trying to avoid crashing into them.
I'm not being discriminating (same race, how to), but it really irks me whenever PRCs treat Singapore as their 'territory'. This is not the only incident. Bah.
I'm sure those who kenna-ed the PRC-in-the-Library will understand my ranting.

But I'm darker! Oh joy. :D

So here i am, slacking infront of the com again, typing a post in a blog which seems to be read by ghosts. Hurrr.
Mom doesnt allow me to go sentosa with char liz and gwen, and I bet that they're now basking in the glorious sun out there.
ITS ALRIGHT, I shall go for a swim on my own. Boohoo. It's stupid swimming in a bikini la.
I don't wanna risk seeing a piece of black cloth floating somewhere not on me, and how to get a good workout swimming with worries?! Bikinis are for going to beaches or tanning with friends. Not for swimming. Bah.
Tanning alone at a swimming pool is weird, in the Book of Beni's Theories to Life. Which means I wear my swimsuit and get a swimsuit tanline. BOO.
I shall now Shut up, and get a life.
I have a sudden Need For Speed.

This, is my car. My beloved Honda Civic Type R. Sweet, huh? :DThe game almost drove me nucking futs today, but i managed to win that elusive round by a FLUKE. BAhahAHAhha. :D 

Argh as long as there is such a thing called The Internet,
I can forget about focussing on my work wholeheartedly. Click! and a blog opens up. Click on the blog, another blog. Another. And another. And and another.

Then if I get bored, Click!
Need For Speed Underground loads. Then im hooked for the rest of the day.

See, I'm not doing my work now either. Greattttt. I shall end with abruptness.

Abruptness.

ABCDunoEFG, Charmie's blog is the best i see. Cos she mentioned my name times three, so im giving her a hug for free. Now you know the ABC(dE), next time wont you sing with meeeeee. -beni, 230804, 'Butterfly Kisses fer you...'s tagboard (Charmaine, 2004)'

oooh yeah.
Ramani has approved of my topic!! Cosmetic Surgery. Had to think of a new topic last minute at the library today cos i couldnt find any books on feral children.
OPAC's not accurate lor. It showed 135154524 books on my topic but i could only find 3 of them, and one of them was on 'Beautiful Feet'. What sial.
So i loaned this book entitled,

'Making the Body Beautiful (picture)
A CULTURAL HISTORY OF AESTHETIC SURGERY'

Yeah, note the miniscule print beneath the picture. The title of the book doesnt look very pretty a book to carry on a hand, not for Beni the Image-ignorant.
So when Serene saw me, she saw the book, and she went 'Wah, someone is becoming vain already ehhh!!'
I pointed to the fine print indignantly. Shall digress abit by saying "Serene I missedyer too. heh!"
As i walked out of NP, i desperately tried to shield the title of the book. The more i looked at it, the more it looked wrong. On Beni, that is.
Bah.

This is post 401. And it will be in pink. cos im feeling pink. Not in the pink of health, but pink is the colour of my face from thinking about the word 'Outline'.

And i would like to say that my mom caught me still up at the com at 230am and woke me up at 930am just because.
And the worst thing is that MY THESIS STATEMENT WAS REJECTED BY RAMANI ON THE 19TH AND I ONLY FOUND OUT THIS MORNING AT 1AM THAT'S WHY I WAS STILL ONLINE DESPERATELY TRYING TO WRECK MY SHIT-FILLED BRAINS FOR A NEW TOPIC.
Which i couldnt find any on my own(read: shit-filled brains).
I realised that I don't like to think anymore. Not for the right purposes (read: school) anyway.

Thank God for Char. THANKS A 1,453,661,347,958,439,373,197 CHAR!!

Feral Children, anyone?

Time will heal; It just depends how deep the wound is. Argh. God, i need You.

Today's service was really good. Brought me to worship in a way that was so different; i felt so much more refreshed.
Its Global music sunday, so Trinity Theological College was invited to lead worship. We sang praises which originated from various countries like Jamaica, Cuba, Carribean, Philippines etc.
The lyrics and tunes were pure and simple, using native percussion auxilliaries, piano, violin, cello and the occasional harp- yet carried much more impact than commercialized, rock-influenced songs message-wise.
Was glad to have a break from playing for service. Missed the feeling of sitting back and being able to worship without worrying about my playing or the music.

Still, i was pretty tired, i dont know why. Perhaps it was because i slept at 230am the night before. Went for billiards with jeff. Our usual average time we take to complete one game is 1/2hr.The last game was crap for me ): but jeff hit 78pts. if i hadnt hit in the last 2 balls i would have scored one of my lowest games ever, and him his highest. bah.

Went home instead of going to my aunt's as intended, cos i had a feeling i wouldnt make it past Courts. Took a nice nap, and started on my newly-installed Need For Speed Underground! Whee. Kick sial!
(K i was supposed to start on my Writ Comm EssayOutline <- its a taboo word now, the underlined one.) Busy tweaking my Mitsubishi Ellipse, rx-7 and Civic type R and trying to improve my drifting techniques. And trying to get past 2nd place in that stupid race, if not i cant proceed to other courses. Bah. we'll drift apart soon, and it sucks to know that- my friend.

its getting easier.

I don't really want this to happen, but it is.
Its a love-hate thing.
I feel as though Im tearing away my limbs from my body, slow and excruciatingly.
Yet through pain comes relief. Relief of a contrite heart.
Though still stinging, I am healing.. with God's help.

I aren't looking forward to the last of things -
but they have to come.
so much - all in these short span of 9 months. exactly.

givemeaknife.

k before the day passes..


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LIN XUANBIN!

Thanks for being one of the closest male friends i have.
Am so glad to have gotten to know you in PJC Zekiel-zenith!
And that you're in MassComm toooooooooooooo.
hurhur.
Be Good kay. :D :D

Me and serene walked out of the seminar area, giving the excuse that we were going toilet.
Then we suddenly U-turned and chionged to the lift lobby and down the stairs! Bahaha.
No one else was there from our class. Anne and Eve overslept, lucky asses. The attendance was Pathetic la. Money was to be refunded only at the end of the seminar. I guessed as much la.
We decided to go to KAP for breakfast, heh. Chatted quite abit. Signed up for some Ez-link promo shit.
MacDonald is damn smart la. See, the ez-link thing is some points system, where you get 10 points for every $1 spent at macs. The points will only last 12 months from date of registration, so you will definitely try to accumulate AND spend those points in as quick as a time possible. Which means that you will patronise them even more often than before.
They banked in on Singaporeans' love for 'Freebies' (the points are redeemed for free food) and kiasu-ness to further boost their sales. Everyone will try to accumulate points for the free food and redeem the food, accumulate and redeem, and so on.
To most, since there's free food to get everytime they eat, why not eh.
And Bingo! Macs have achieved their aim.

I was walking home when at the traffic junction, guess whose car i saw again? JLO.
Hurhur. His car was waiting for the lights to turn green at the crossroads at KAP, headed towards NP. Ha.

Darn i wanted to go for a swim again but the sky had to turn dark in a few seconds and rain for a few seconds. Now its pouring so hard i cant see NP already. Bah.

Supposed to go for the remedial today but eve char and i decided at the last minute that we didnt really want to go afterall. haha.
Went to my place to slack.. saw jLo's car parked at the Staff Apartments. bahaha.
We sure had fun, huh? -winks.
Played basketball at the courts in the staff apartments. Eve's Good! :D
I lost to her 7-1 when we played 1-on-1. that's how good she is can.
bahaha.
Came back to my place, cooled ourselves and walked down to Bukit Timah Market for Satay and Ice Jelly.
Wowwee. i really enjoyed myself lots!
Im enjoying myself with everything i have. Life's been Good to me, though not without the usual ups and downs.
Thank God so much for my wonderful ABCDE! hahhaa.
Whee! (:

i went to bed at 4.30am a happy girl, woke up at 10am a happy woman.
i felt a particular calmness; a certain inexplicable joy in me. Machiam attain enlightenment lidat, yeah that was how i was feeling. hurhur.
"Everything fell into place" (Evelyn, msn convo, 2004). haha no plagiarism!
Anyway. im so proud of myself! whee.
and im so proud of eve. and liz. they inspired me i guess.

Rose came over to my place awhile this morn, and we went together to Cold Storage to buy food, then go to her place to cook them, heh.
After much contemplation, we decided on a bacon bits pizza, frozen dory fillet and blueberry pancakes. whee!
Bought a pack of bread crumbs to coat the fillet with.
Shiok man! bahhaha.
Met Jeff for billiards after that. played quite a good 4 games. whee.

Freaky as it sounds, i actually watched the wound on my finger heal.
its a sign..

ok la it sounds like some boring itinerary shit la. XuanBin forced me to update loh. :(
But i really felt Good today. (:

ive decided.
its time to move on.

I went to town for the first time in a week.

and that's not the point. i went to Plaza Sing.

And that's also not the point. i went there with my PARENTS. No Benny (benedict), no Bennie. Just Beni, Mommie and Daddy.

And that's also also not the point. We all had Gelare waffles can.

And that's also also also not the point. i went there and got my SIM CARD!

And that's the point. IM REACHABLE NOW! whee! welcome back to world! -congratulates myself.

ahem.

Oh as i was saying, i would appreciate it if all you who have my hp no. drop me an sms. :D

Thankyouverymuch!

No new hp la, am using my old 8210. No one trusts me with handphones anymore. bah.

No radio, no folders, no more Clocks ringtone... boohoo. ):

Went to swim @NP again. Feels damn shiok man..

i just love the feeling of slicing through the water.

Ok i admit that when i swim, i will hum a song and swim to the beat of it. Its not funny k! It really keeps my mind off everything, including the distance left and the muscle aches.

So next time you hear some weird noises in the water and you're swimming with me, dont think that its some underwater ghost from the seventh month. its me.

I think i coughed out the last of my flem today after a few bouts of coughing fits =/

Rest at home has energized me.

I wanna go out and about now!! hurhurhur.

somehow
its so hard for me to keep that hope afloat.
yes, we never know what will happen in future.
but what are the chances of that happening?
do you really want it to?
whydoyoustillwantmetoholdonthen?
i see those glimpses of hope diminish-
so does my heartbeat, desprately pounding to save itself from sinking deep into the murky waters.
but i miss you so.
its scary to see how love blinds me; then makes me see.
and the vicious cycle continues.

then i realise -
the joke's on me.

But you still have all of me.

whee, now i know that my gastric juice is yellowish and Bitter.
Music Sunday was fine, my sharing went well - i guess.
Throat's still down, didnt really feel all that great so i scrapped going to sentosa.
whenwhenwhen can i go again!! i feel like a freaking white chicken ARgh.
KFC's 2 piece chicken was too tempting, i yielded. (Note the dangling modifier)

Anywayyy. School's out!! whee!
2 weeks... my first week is almost packed i think. Planning to stay home today to rest.
gah. Broke = no life. grr.
But at least im better off than the JC people who are mugging their asses off for promos. phew.
Eve's telling me all about the Mad Chinaman @ NP llibrary now.
apparently he stared at our whole bunch of girls and said 'you're all soo pretty and beautiful!'
Especially to Anne. and they acted les, eve and anne, scaring the poor china boy off.
bahhahah.
hurhur. hurhurhur. hurhurhurhurhurhur!!!
Im grinning like an idiot behind my laptop now la. wahahha.

have a Happy Break! whee.

on my mp3player tonight
it was all about you.
so were the other nights.

Oh, this is Priceless. I cant believe I didnt blog about this.

Telemarketer [Tm] calls Mr Lo [JLo]. Mr Lo turns on the loudspeaker on his handphone.

[Tm] : (Apparently he's calling from some airline company selling frequent flyer credit cards.)
[JLo] : Wait, wait. What are you selling again?
[Tm] : (Repeats his introduction all over again. Can tell that he's speaking very fast)
[JLo] : Oh, i see. So what, is this some airplane thing? What airline are you representing? Gulf Air? Africa Air?
[Tm] : Blahblahblah. (I dont know what company it is till now.)
[JLo] : Fly? Well im rather scared of flying, you know. I usually take a boat.
[Tm] : (says something about their flight programmes and promotions)
[JLo] : Oh i see, but do you have any boat programmes?
[Tm] : (persists on talking about their flight programmes)
[JLo] : Sorry, but im going to go for a major surgery soon.
[Tm] : (Asks how long is the surgery)
[JLo] : I dont know how long its going to take. Im going to for a surgery for my hernia.
[Tm] : (asks when he can call again, the fool.)
[JLo] : You can call back in a week's time, but i dont know if i will have the nuts to talk to you. Goodbye.

The class was practically doubling over with laughter. Poor telemarketer. He should have checked JLo's profession before trying. I would quit immediately if i were him. I could imagine the poor guy's face forming beads of sweat and in his mind wondering how JLo could be a civil servant with his 'brains'.

Heh then Eve swiped his car keys after class and we waited outside at his car and took photos with his car before he came out. The keys were passed around but it came to me, and i unlocked the car door with the electronic sensor.
JLo noticed that the other front door was unlocked and approached to open it. But the moment he placed his hand on the handle, i locked it. Bahaha.
The keys were in my pocket, so i unlocked and locked and unlocked the car with glee.
Ok la, it got abit boring after awhile so i discreetly stuffed the key into the lock on the other side where he stood and told him to go home. Hurhur.
Madness.

Got a B+ for webgraphics. Kudos to Ming! heh.
edit6:15pm Grammar test was crazy. 'priviledged' WAS WAS NOT spelt correctly in the test.
But all us act smart people just changed the spelling la. The correct spelling is 'privileged'. I cant remember exactly how i spelt it, but i think i got i wrong anyhow. I admit that this word is one word that often gets me as konfused as a mat in a korner.
Thank God matJona found 31 mistakes in the passage too! There were at least 15, and most said that there were at most 20+ of them mistakes only.
But i really found 31!
hurhur ok la when the results come out then we will know eh.

The weather's Sweet man!
i shall go for a swim at NgeeAnn now.
Ah, the priviledges privilege of being a student member in a tertiary institute behind my house.
i paid for it k, dammit.

Just as well. Grammar test tomorrow. Will anyhow hantam and see if i can pass.

Grr.
Why am i such a weakling.

Shut up la you. -slaps myself.

Im feeling rather schizophrenic and childish now, so sorry for the rubbishy post.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary,

Today T106 touched me quite hard with how they saw friendship greater than the iniquities of men.
"Love the sinner, hate the sin."
-Will be the phrase i now live by.. Prayer will be my strongest tool. Not by my strength.
A, A, M, M. Do you know how worried I am for you guys? Argh.

i <3> T106!!
I would also like to thank all those (imagine my Shexy Deep Voice saying 'thank you') who left words of encouragement and concern. It really made my day. (:

Picked up some contemporary piano skills from my guitar teacher instead of learning more guitar. He just dumped me the fingerings for the guit, sigh.
But I am Determined to improve myself with piano improvisation. and the ruddy guitar. and drums. Couldnt sing a note today, and it made me feel so sian during practice. bah.

Ok anyhow, my mom aint happy with me recently. I havent been spending much time at home or talking to her.

YouthFellowship later will have a workshop held this Clement Chow guy who wrote 'Count on me Singapore' teaching us how to worship! Wowwee.

Sorry, random rants being thrown about. Goodnite! I'll sleep early yup. 1:30am k.

Dear Diary,

Today was a Shitty day for poor Beni. She woke up at 11am with lots of coughing and disgusting greenish flem and a bad throat. Then she almost slipped and fell in the toilet - almost, because the toilet door saved her. But the toilet door didnt prevent her from falling as Beni got off the bus at the Heeren. Her left foot miscued and caught onto the kerb as she stepped off the platform and before she knew it, she was falling, to the screams of Gwen and Liz. Her poor left elbow bore the brunt of the fall and it has a spot of abrasion and a little dislocation.

All Beni could think of as she fell was to listen for cracks. What only mattered was her elbow, not the embarrassment of falling in Orchard. If it had been the right elbow (the one on the right, not that it was wrong elbow), her drumming would have been affected greatly. And had anything broke, that's it to the drums coming Youth Sunday, and for the Sunday's 11.30am Service, and for the months to come. Moving her left elbow now feels abit weird and it seems abit swollen. Beni's worried about her future with the guitar as such. She sorely misses playing (the same and only song she knows) "Here I am to Worship", whenever she touches it, much to the dismay of her guitar teacher who hasn't been doing his job.

Poor Beni. First the handphone, then she had to fall. Her right forefinger's nail chipped too (guitar strumming how?! ARGH.) , and she was shitting/farting badly again just now. But things perked up for her as she hung out with Liz and Gwen in Takashimaya. Great company, delicious Cheese Pork hotdog from Marche and Mocha from Cold Storage did the trick. She met Rachel (!) on the bus on the way home. Rachel had skipped 3 buses on purpose, and it was by fate they met.

Sigh. Bad things have been happening to Beni and those around her. Yet she isn't disheartened - she feels even more determined to get on with life and help her friends. Beni can't help feeling a little sad though. Ohwell.

i thought i could sleep earlier nowadays. Yeah, 2am is considered early in my dictionary.
but im doing a pretty good job of missing my handphone. and slacking online again.
and missing a certain someone.
Damn, this Laptop is evil, i tell you.
Strains from Jay Chou's latest CD is my companion in this deadnight stillness. Its nothing spectacular from his previous albums though. Not bad la.
I still miss my mobile radio companion and communication device rolled in one, sigh.

Went to Dora's father's wake.
Cant really compose my thoughts well now so i shall talk about it tomorrow.

I just wanna say that my stomach is crazy. It feels like shitting/farting all the time. I must be heaty man. Aye doesnt mean that i fart in public k. bah.

Hereth, in Oblivion Lies My Beloved N721O
Whereth It Faileth to Lay with me till Old
The Heartbreak it Bringeth is Triple-Fold
Third Time it is that my Handphone should Go
May it Rest In Pieces; i Curse the one who is so Bold
My Precious Jewel he hath Dareth Stole
For the Messages it containeth is Worth More Than Gold
Endless Woe shalt Betide he who hath The Green and White Jew'l
Impotency or Barreness Shalt therefore Ensue
Fornication and Libido wilt hence annul
The Manhood shalt Break off in Bitter and Throe
Senescence shalt Catch Up with him soon; and so shalt his Foe
Be Brought To Thy Knees, Immoral Diablo
Thy hath Unleashed the Rage in the Blase Psycho
And now She Mourneth to No Avail for Her Inamorato

Who now Layeth in Eternal Limbo.
R.I.P

___________________________
The She-Bangs Stripper Awaits HERE.
Feast your eyes.

Singapore Idol is Hee hee hee heeliarious
Fa hahaha ha NII (k not funny)

My all-time favourite is the Andy Lau!!
he's a walking contradiction la can! wahahaha.
I like the judge Ken Lim also.
I wont call him Singapore's answer to Simon Cowell - cos i think he has a style of his own man.
the way he stares at the contestants with his glasses perched low on his nose is damn intimidating to the contestant, yet its freaking funny to the tv viewer.
And the Steven Lim (darn i had his blog addie from i duno where but i forgot e add alr ARGH) went on tv!

MY GOONDU-NESS.

He was the one who did the rumoured 'stripper she-bangs', leaving the poor judges stripped of their own dignity to have seen something as horrific as that.
He has a ego as huge as the his oversized yellow underwear. and his sagging ass looks like his face.
He's 28 i think, he has a blind girlfriend of 15 if i dont remember wrongly.
When i find the blog again i shall have the link up here in no time.!

National Day started at 6.30am for me..sigh. Super duper tired.
Lucky you government education slaves. no school for you tomorrow! gah.

The previous post was directed at whom, they should know themselves.

Its not about me being biased; its all about respect.

i dont like to point fingers at people, but somehow if i didnt let this out somehow, i wont be happy. those who know me well should know how i work.
But if you dont, well here's how it goes-
If i consider you a friend, i will tell you when you do something which i dont think is right, when you hurt me some way or another or whatever im not happy with.
So yeah. But sometimes, its really hard cos, ha- who wants to make enemies huh. But Constructive Criticism is what i give. Not that i am way up there. I aint perfect, but i strongly believe in honesty and openness amongst friends. Friends.
Especially those whom i love and care about.
If not, i wouldnt even bother.
But somehow, i guess even if i named names, not everyone will take it down well. ha.
so what's the point.

i will be talking to you soon, my friend.

kate 'n' kale, claire's flowershop- 2 local bands to look out for!
went to check out the gigs @NP 'pathetic' funfair with eve &anne today.
was half deaf after the thing la.
Bad acoustics, lousy soundcrew, muffled mikes
and most bands were just blasting (and i mean Blasting) 'noise'. what happened to balancing man...
See, your guitars, drums, bass &vocals is good stand alone, BUT if everything is being trashed out at you without caring about the balancing i.e. lead guitar being drowned out by the drums and bass trying to drown out the vocals when its not having a solo, its terrible.
My poor ears switched off (more like went deaf) till the above mentioned bands came on.
Though heavy metal music arent something im into, their self-composed songs are worth a mention i guess.

Anyhow, its really disappointing to see how disrespectful and selfish some people are. Especially when they are people whom i consider friends.
Criticism is something everyone should learn from, and not get all defensive. One should open their eyes and see where they stand and how 'good' they are before they try to contend that they are always right. What's wrong with being wrong?
There's never an end to learning.
That's why i am not afraid of making a fool of myself.
And i dont understand how people can blatantly show disrespect to the others around them when they Definitely wouldnt want the same treatment to be given to them.
The word 'Respect' is now so devalued around here, its Disgusting. but i shant say so much already.
In the end, who loses out- its their choice.

my ears are ringingggggg. there's this sharp sound which aint very loud in my ears, has been around for awhile since 10pm. Shit.
And my eyes are going blind soon from excessive staring at the screen.
it was half shut during my essay thing...
really couldnt concentrate. argh. ok im poooooped to the Max man.

HAPPY 17TH EVE!!

My Ah Ma Tong Zhi
My Poolio Coolio
My Kbox Kaki
My Jamming Mate
My Tong Xiao Chatting partner
My Bball Beau
My Bambam
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My FRIEND.

Suspiciously like e friendster testi i left u huh.. HEH! You've been a wonderful person to me, and i thank God that we got to know each other.
I do!
God bless! Have a good one. (:

i shitted 5x in 20 mins
and gave a fart
which lasted a whole 10 seconds.
all hail the Anal-retentive Fart Queen.

First there were the hiccups.
then one moment my nose is constipated;
the next it runs like a freaking marathon.
My head is whoozy.
I can feel the gases in my tummy threatening to fuse together, about to implode anytime.
My breaths are in short gasps- sitting is painful. So is typing this post.
But i must type this entry to make you all feel my plight.
Bahaha.
That's not the point, cos Im here to say
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HAPPY 17tH BIRTHDAY GWEN!

Whee. (:

( ( michaelboltonhowamisupposedtolivewithoutyou ) )

its with flaws, we are reminded that we are only human.
but it also is with flaws, this world is a bugger place to live in.
Yet it isnt an excuse for us to live with our flaws.

till today, i dont understand how the human mind works.
i think now, i'd rather not.
i wanna understand how God works.
It's time to go Home.

NP Pops and Classics

The band wasnt at its best, but it was pretty good alr. It didnt help that the acoustics in LT26 Sucked la, ohwell.
The Alumni band was Freaking good!!
It wasnt a full band; just a stage band set up with 2 trombones, 2 trumpets, 2 saxophones, a bass guitar, a synthesizer, an electric guitar and drums.
But wah lau, they should just quit their jobs (whatever they're doing la) and earn a living out of playing as a stage band!!
Stage bands usually play big band songs, which repertoire can include a mix of swing and jazz, and abit of disco thrown in for last night's.
There was an ah-bengy Saxophone soloist who really, really, really impressed me- but not as good as Kenny G la of course.
Good enough for a Singaporean already. heh.
The bassist was good too. It aint easy playing the part of a double bass (the biggest of e string family) on a bass guitar.
The electric guitarist was Friggin Power!!! my goodness. He played soooo effortlessly, his fingers ran up and down the fingerboard like nobodies' business. He's some malay guy who's quite big sized. Good stuff man.
And the drummer..... -bows. Its not easy to play Big Band (imho la) on e drums... and he really did a Great job! He inspired me to play during service today, so it wasnt so bad afterall.
I guess i should stop wallowing in self-pity for my mediocre skills and try my best to improve man.
Really missed the band, especially performing. nanhua band's performing chances were pathetic. was so tempted to join them all over again. sigh. I'll see how la. Thanks guys for your feedback! heh.

Dinner with xuanbin at Al-Ameens' (thanks again for e treat! heh.), did a fair bit of catching up then walked to NP.
The back gate was closed alr..so we climbed over the fence like some robbers la. There were one or two pple walking around, but they didnt see us (i hope). Xb cut his ickle finger on e barbs. and i was left unscathed. bahaha.

Today's drums went pretty well. My right arm(pit -.-) muscle is kinda strained now...gah.
Slept from 3-6pm! whee. im a happy person. think i shall sleep early tonite too. I can see my __ tmr!! YAY!